Well, I really do think I am back this time. I was at my daughter's until a couple of weeks ago - just never got around to this. It was a wonderful time - I was there for 4 1/2 weeks. I'm fairly sure my son-in-law was doing a happy dance as we drove out of the driveway to go to the airport! (Actually, he's very good about letting me come for a long visit.)

Now that I'm home, I'm overwhelmed by all I want to do. I'm sorting out all my stuff - my mom's things will be arriving next month. I have to get ready to teach 3 new subjects (new to me) in the fall. The Writing Workshop class is all up to me - I'm even writing the curriculum. I'm just not very inspired to get into school work just yet - but I better get on the ball because school starts in a month here in Texas.

So.................I am also trying to get past the persistent writing block. After much reflection, I realized that I haven't been able to write much since my mother died. I think it is partly grief - but also because she was my biggest supporter - the one who got most excited about my writing. I would call her up at all hours to listen to what I had written. It's somehow not quite the same. I guess it means getting to a new mental creative place - and I will find it. She would be sad if she knew I wasn't writing a lot. So I am determined to find that quiet place where words meet paper and write themselves into poems.

It's just a quick journal tonight - will post some faves next time.

After an unintended break, I think I'm back. At least I hope so. My creative muse has escaped me - I've barely been writing at all. This is a constant source of frustration for me - one I am hoping will end soon.

I guess I let things going on in life get me off kilter. Some of those I shouldn't - issues at work, for instance. (Which seems to be resolving itself - I'm praying so.) Some things are overwhelming - one of my best friends' granddaugter committed suicide. Her grief was so palpable to me. So it's been ups and downs since the time I've been off Deviant.

With school coming to a close in a couple of weeks, I'm impatient. I'll be with my daughter and the kids right after and can't wait. I've told her I want to spend time writing at her house - and she's so creative that she understands and will support that. I could really use a cheerleader! Just being with those that love me best will rejuvenate me.

And I can't wait to get away from this city! There are so many lovely places to go in Maryland - although just being with my grandkids and hanging out is enough for me.

So I'm back - and say a prayer that my writing mojo is soon rediscovered!




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Barely a moment to breathe this week.....

I've promised myself I'm going to slow down a bit, but that never seems to happen. Work is trying to take over my life, but I'm fighting it. I'd be happy just to sit by the ocean and write! Well, there's no ocean nearby anyway, so I can't give in to that temptation.

If I could, I'd just sprout a pair of wings and fly away from all my responsibilties!

Had a great weekend with my daughter....

The week has been hectic......let me just say that this week has reminded me why I can't wait until I retire!








Fragile wings in wind
jet black and jeweled butterfly
trapped in autumn's rain

by ScarlettLetters
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Photo by Starbuck
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Family...we have to value every moment we can. My daughter is flying in for the weekend to see me and her friends (no, I don't want to share!). It's going to be the first real mother/daughter without kids or hubby time that we've had since the year after she got married. (Has it been 9 years?) I'm blessed because I truly enjoy being with her - she's a beautiful woman inside and out. I've taken the day off tomorrow and can't wait to get to the airport to pick her up!

I hope that you, too, have special family time this weekend.






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